The Life and Death of Fluffer-nutter

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Lothar’s Stratagem by Libby Sinclair

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Lothar’s Stratagem by Libby Sinclair

Check out my friend Libby’s ebook.  

Mercy Street

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Inspiration for writing

Long Shadows Made Short–Chapter 01 Preview

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , , on June 11, 2013 by thislegofmine

Below is a preview of the book I’m trying to self publish.  I’m taking donations through Kickstarter, with a free copy of the book at every level.  So if you like what you read share the Kickstarter, or better yet donate a dollar or two, please.


Chapter 01



 It wasn’t long until Melanie regretted going to the sandwich shop near the hospital. Its location was convenient to the ward her husband was in, but the news playing muted on the TV was upsetting the patrons. Most places had set the station to a cartoon channel to keep uneasy nerves from showing. No one was happy that America was losing the war.


 A group of young people sat around a table and a teenager with curly red hair had the angriest voice in the room. Several times, he repeated, “Those damn Indians are going to blow us all to hell.”


 For the third time, a young woman sitting nearby responded with, “Pig fucking Communist bastards.”


 The racism was grating on Melanie’s nerves. Her annoyance at the rude comments escaped as a sigh and an apologetic look came from a Hispanic woman sitting near the teenagers. Melanie shook her head in response, letting the lady know she was appreciative of the sympathy. At some point, Melanie would say something in hopes her age would quiet the conversation, but hunger and sore hips made her want to sit down more than start a fight.


 One middle-aged woman laughingly added, “It used to be we thought Indians were all Hare Krishna, then those heathen Chinese invaded and they got all uppity.”


 A necklace with a gold X against a black background shone from the woman’s neck. This identified her as someone who worked for a religious charity shop and Melanie tried to excuse her bias. The anger so many people felt was hard to witness on a good day when there was enough bread to go around. Rationing made everything difficult to procure and Melanie wished these people could just be happy for a bread day.


 “What do you think, Grandma?” The same young man with russet hair tried to draw Melanie into the bitching session.


 Shocked a stranger would comment so rudely on her age, Melanie angled her eyebrows. “I think people like you are the reason people are dying of typhoid in internment camps.”


 “A liberal grandma.” The youth grinned wickedly, the side of his face highlighted green from the reflection of the sun off the painted wall. Chuckling with his pals for a few seconds, the man spat his next words as if he were an animal provoking a fight. “It’s fools like you who let the fucking Pinko’s take over Europe and Northern African so easy.”


 Relieved she was next in line, Melanie ignored the rude teenager and smiled at the clerk. “I’ll have the twenty percent turkey filler on wheat. Are you out of lettuce?”


  “I told you that you’re what’s wrong with this world, you aged old bitch.” The young man stood and started to move towards Melanie. Winding around the metal chairs and tables, he leaned on the sneeze guard while his long, angular face reflected across the produce like an angered spirit. Trying not to wince, Melanie took a step backwards and looked at the bewildered register girl. She wasn’t going to be any help.


 Forty years as a liberal arts teacher meant Melanie had been the subject of anti-communist rage before, but being confronted by a stranger like this made her worry. Since Hawaii had been taken by The Communist Republic of United India, these sentiments had grown more ardent and he was a testament to his bitter generation. A few protesters near the college had severely beaten a colleague and Melanie was beginning to fear the boy would do the same to her.


Fortunately, the middle-aged woman with the red X around her neck came over and put her hand on the teenager’s shoulder. The doughy woman with dyed blonde hair and deep frown lines glared as if she was warning him to stop. A sneer parted the ginger’s lips, but before he could spout any more hate, the middle-aged woman interrupted him. “Joseph, your mother would be so disappointed if she was here right now. You were raised to respect your elders no matter what they think. You’re not proving yourself a man by bullying an old lady.”


 Joseph stammered before giving up. Frustration lined his body as he elbowed his way past the woman. As he left the store, his friends quietly filed out after him. Each teenager gave Melanie a rude look as they pushed their way through the glass door. It wasn’t until the kids had piled into a car and sped off that Melanie remembered to breathe.


 “Thank you,” she said to the woman with the religious necklace.


 “It was the right thing to do,” the woman responded as she rejoined her family. A soulful pop song about lost love was the only noise remaining when Melanie paid for her sandwich and asked for it in a to-go bag.


The Dallas heat reverberated off the pavement as Melanie opened her car door and tossed her sandwich gently onto the passenger’s seat. She used the frame to lower herself to avoid pain in her hips. Putting her keys into the steering column, turned it to the “on” position with her arthritic fingers. The Chrysler Halo pulled juice from its electric battery, triggering a smooth, purring sound from the engine. As if it knew she had just entered the car, the light on the dash of her car blinked for attention.

“Little asshole,” Melanie grumbled. 


Voice shaky she commanded the consol on her car to give her directions home.  Instead of the usual video, a flickering icon appeared. The still picture was of a dark-haired debonair woman in her early fifties. It was Sheryl Hues, a big-shot inventor and multi-billionaire who Melanie begrudgingly called friend. Despite herself, Mel preened her hair in the rearview mirror in a vain attempt to seem attractive.


“Hello Sheryl, it’s been a long time, hasn’t it?” Mel spoke with a dry, sarcastic tone that she hoped would cover up the exhaustion she felt. “Last I heard, you were in seclusion and unable to speak with old friends.”


“Mel, you look lovely as ever,” Sheryl responded in a more charming, concerned manner than usual. “Tell me, are you well?”


Once again fidgeting with her gray hair, Mel responded, “I see your absence from society hasn’t stopped you from being a shameless flirt. I don’t want to waste time playing games, Sheryl. It’s been a long time since you called to say hello and even longer since you’ve been social with anyone but your research.”


“You know you’re special to me, Mel.” Sheryl’s voice was patronizing yet kind. “I want you to rethink my offer about a slot in my personal shelter. After all, the new world needs artists just like it needs scientists and doctors.”


A mechanical timbre echoed from the edge of Sheryl Hues’ voice. The artificial sound caused Mel to grimace as she remembered rumors that Sheryl had been trying to preserve her consciousness in one of the robots she had invented. Unfortunately, Sheryl’s voice sounded unnatural, like an AI that was learning the nuances of speech and Mel feared these rumors were true.


“The future doesn’t need old women whose best years are behind them.” Mel smiled, her mind returning to the topic at hand. “Plus, Don’s still in the hospital. He doesn’t have a lot of time left.”


Melanie’s face withered as she talked, all of her sixty-eight years settled into every crease and wrinkle. After her hospital visit, groceries, and getting lunch, she planned to nap and watch TV the rest of the day. The burden of living was beginning to grind and it showed. She had to cut back on most of the things she used to do. Her mind was still sharp, but her body failed to keep up.


General weariness caused her to apologize to Sheryl in the hope she would finally stop dogging her to wait out the war underground. “I tell you what, if nuclear war hasn’t come by the time Don finally passes, I’ll consider your offer more closely.”


Almost psychic in her response, Sheryl said,  “I know this has to be hard on you, Melly; you always did have a sympathetic soul. Let me make a suggestion that might make you feel better: why don’t you take the day off today and visit the facility? I downloaded directions to your car’s computer and I promise VIP treatment. There is even a spa in the facility for you to take a soak in. Visiting might help make the choice easier for you once Don has passed on, of course.”


Those last words pressed on the air with tension as Mel thought about her offer. Sheryl had never approved of her marrying Don, and she found the tone she adopted when speaking of Don insulting. Yet, being dogmatically pestered by Sheryl had left Melanie tired and she was ready to agree to almost anything if it would make her stop.


“In order to finally shut you up,” Mel began, “I’ll check it out this afternoon. This is no promise of my future decisions. It is a visit to see what you’ve put together to ‘save mankind,’ and nothing more.”


Gloating, Sheryl said, “Excellent. I shall tell my automatic sentries to look for you! Melanie, you won’t regret this. I promise. I can’t wait to talk to you about my plans.”


“Of course I won’t regret this,” Mel grumbled as she started to back up the car and headed towards the point indicated on her map. “I’m not making any decisions I’m not ready to live with.”


The Chrysler Halo’s teal body was bluer in the artificial sun lamps of the underground compound. As the car sank down on a platform to the parking level, Melanie wished the car retained this sheen in the sun. The off coloration of everything combined with the cold from the powerful air conditioner made her regret coming, even if her car looked nicer down here.


A robot tour guide appeared from the doorway nearest to the car lift. It was hard not to gawk at the dome-shaped mechanism with dozens of arms, even if it did have a nice male voice. Mel worried robots secretly harbored feelings and was repulsed by them for that reason.


The idea of being trapped in a metal body you can’t flee made Mel feel guilt concerning her beloved pet cat. Whiskers had started to grow old, and with his time nearly up, she had preserved him with cybernetic implants. He was the same animal and pieces of familiar fur were in comforting places, but his feet hurt when he ran across you. The most disturbing thing about the cat was watching him try to groom his metal legs. Her cat didn’t really understand that his artificial appendages weren’t part of his normal body, but she still wondered if it wasn’t wrong to defy nature.


The click of shoes on the concrete floor was slightly muffled by the robot’s whirring components. This solitary sound distracted Mel from the robot, who was spouting pre-recorded information about the building. Paying attention wouldn’t change Mel’s opinion. Surviving the apocalypse wasn’t for her-this exercise would shut Sheryl up and possibly get her to leave Mel alone until after the cancer took Don. Mel was sixty-eight years old and the world had fallen into a pattern of suffering and beauty that rarely surprised her anymore. It was time to enjoy what she had left before death came.


The lack of human sound told her that the shelter must be one that keeps people in suspended animation until it was safe to start again. It would be a waste for her to step into one of those cells. She doubted her fragile bones would even allow her to enter one without assistance. Plus, the robots ran everything, and the idea of having the machines creep around while she hibernated caused her annoyance at Sheryl to triple.


“Sleeping beauty is a youthful princess,” Mel thought. “Tragic in that she cannot experience the wonder of life’s beginning. I only have endings left. I will walk out those doors and help my husband with his.”


The robot took her down long halls towards a steel door. The tour wording seemed to be recycled from one given to the inhabitants. “These are the dorms that will house the survivors after the war is over. Each one contains personal effects and will remain hermetically sealed until the day the owners wake up to their new lives.”


The sexy quality of the robot’s voice made Mel wonder if the other rumor about Sheryl bedding her robots was true. After her fiftieth birthday, Sheryl had stopped leaving her suite in the Pegasus Center and no one had seen her in years. It didn’t seem farfetched that a well-programmed robot might be a pleasing companion if you were alone all the time. Still, a robot designed for sexual pleasure was more than a little upsetting to Melanie, who looked at her tour guide with fresh horror. Logic held that any pleasure robots Sheryl might have were with her in Dallas, but Melanie was still bothered by the idea that her guide might be used for something perverse.


A metal pincer extended towards the door at the end of the hall. Melanie stepped back nervously as a radio signal made the door to open, reminding her of a haunted house. Oblivious to her nervousness, the robot continued, “Mrs. Worthing, as a friend of Sheryl Tools and Manufacturing’s founder Sheryl Hues, you have been granted permission to preview a special section, The Shelter’s unique calamity renewal project. You will receive a special spa treatment made available so guests can relax before they are preserved in our patent-pending Forever Capsules. Please go inside and sample some of our spa’s mineral water before your massage.”


Innate mistrust kept Melanie watching the construct as it slowly moved away from her. Once the machines were cleared out of the room, she walked in slowly and picked up the water from the counter. The water was refreshing, but had a tinny taste to it.


“I hate mineral water,” Mel grumbled as she surveyed the room for something worth noticing. The room was blank and sterile just like the rest of The Shelter.  Melanie carefully sat down. An unexplained grogginess spread from her arms, down to her legs, and rested in her brain. Trying to shake it off, she picked up a computer pad from the table next to her and scanned it for news stories, but was unable to focus on the print.


Before sleep overcame her, Melanie muttered, “Of course I’d forget my reading glasses.”



Idea: Good Life Decision Parties

Posted in Uncategorized on November 17, 2012 by thislegofmine


Why aren’t there Good Life Decision Parties?


We have parties for our birthdays, holidays, anniversaries, events, but we never celebrate the moment someone we care about makes a big change in their life. 


Did your drinky-ass sober up and start going to AA meetings?  Good life decision party. (no booze)


Did you leave your abusive spouse and get counseling?  Good Life decision party.


Stop smoking crack?  Good life decision party!


The amount out parties that could be held for “good life decisions,” are endless.  They help us celebrate the things we do right in life, rather than holding off on congregations of supportive loved ones for rare events like weddings etc. 


I feel like for a Good Life Decision party to be successful, it should be a surprise.  The life decided should show up at their house or a bar (but not if it’s a sobriety party), and be like “holy crap I did something right and people noticed.”


This would encourage people to keep doing things right.  The people you love came together and celebrated a deeply valuable moment, that should keep you in good-guilt for years.   Plus it gives you permission to say “I did something right,” and gives you a visual reminder of the people who matter.  I mean fix yourself for you, not for a party, or your loved ones but sometimes having people gather around to pat you on the back can make a big difference.  

Dystopian Future: Richard Speck and Gillette Venus Razor Adds

Posted in Uncategorized on September 17, 2012 by thislegofmine

I’m watching this video on Richard Speck
In 1966 he trapped 9 nursing students in a dorm room, raped, and brutally murdered all but one of them.

Because of the “target advertisting” I’m watching this video….and it’s being interlaced with adds for women’s shoes/gillette shaving creme…Featuring female reality TV star’s bouncing around on a bed…
Seems poetic.


Think about it on the most fundamental level.  Pretty, reality TV stars dancing around, offering “shaving tips” so you can drag a bright pink razor across your skin.  Think about Richard Speck’s video of himself in prison, fake breasts, snorting cocaine, talking about how he loves it there.


We love it here.


I hate it here.


Things to do in Austin while you’re sick

Posted in Uncategorized on September 17, 2012 by thislegofmine

My partner had work in Austin this weekend so I tagged along.  My goal was to visit friends and have a few days off before the stress of our wedding.  Unfortunately something I ate disagreed with this plan.


So I spent 2 nights in Austin laying in my hotel room reading and watching TV.  I really enjoyed Dawn by Octavia Butler and really want to read the rest of the series.  She is brilliant.  Every time I read one of her novels i’m engrossed in a world so much colorful than the one we live in.  It’s like going through withdrawal to finish it.  


I also watched Season 5 of Mad Men and I have to say… Better than Season 4 and I continue to be impressed with how well written it is.  The show captures how mundane and banal evil can become.